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a different mom
“man is a dog’s idea of what god should be.”
okay, seriously. don’t hate me for another puppy photo. i could post them all day long and never get tired of it, but i know you would, so i will spare you the photos… for today at least. i have been thinking a lot lately, mostly because i actually have a bit of time to think which is kind of something i was lacking for the busy summer months, but now that i have the time, i feel like i have learned a few profound things these past few weeks. you all know how we are foster failures in taking in little tucker and i have to say, this little fella is one heck of a cuddler, but man, sometimes he makes me so mad. like today when i got home from the gym and my ray bans where on the floor with a few nice teeth marks on the ear piece… oh, momma was not the happiest of campers. it got me thinking how i am so not ready for be a parent, i am not ready to sign up for my things to be destroyed, for my clothes to be filled with baby puke, or for my bank account to pay for diapers (and new ray bans)…
seriously, i love kids. i just don’t want one… drew and i are happily married and are kind of in love with the life we have. we have consistent date nights, travel to tropical places, get away on the weekends, and watch netflix ’til our eyes are red. we are still selfish and we know it, which is something i am not afraid to admit. i always feel like after you get married everyone and their mom (and your own mom) will ask you what your plans are, when you plan to have a family. so many of my friends are getting baby crazed and good for them, but that is just not where i am at. i am married to my man, my career, my dreams at this very moment in time. my ideal family includes two spoiled four-legged friends who sleep on my pillow, bark at strangers, and give me kisses when i wake up… at least for a few more years. sometimes i laugh when i tell people that because everyone was convinced i would settle down right away and start popping out babies. but once that was a reality for my life, i realized i am so not ready for it… but let’s be honest, i don’t think you are ever fully ready to bring another life onto the planet. sorry, i digress…
somedays i realize that these little furry friends are my team. i talk to them, take snuggle breaks, walk around the neighborhood, and give them lots of kisses. all they want is love and trust me, i have a lot of love to go around. if i ever had a child i would most definitely have to delete my instagram because i am certain it would be illegal to post a million photos of a baby and i would so be the person to do that. puppy parenting is a lot like preparing your heart for a someday family, we treat our pups like they are our children and for now, they are. even if i do catch little tuck man lifting his leg, i’ve got to take a deep breath, let out a little sign and spoil him in kisses because that’s what mom’s do… right? training, i tell myself.
i often relate puppy parenting to real parenting and then times it by a google in my head… when i am at the store and spend ten dollars on a puppy sweater instead of buying new essie nail polish, i chalk it up as a lesson in parenting. or when i am on a walk and have to carry around a black bag of poop for a mile, i count that as a mommy point. oh, that one time when we were driving and tucker puked in my lap and i was so disgusted but felt so bad that his tummy ached, that was definitely a gold medal mom moment, in my opinion. i realized that at one point we thought we only had enough love to give chloe, but then a little imperfect man stole our hearts and we love them both just the same – i get it mom, you love me just as much (if not more) than my big brother.. right?
wherever you are in your walk of life, just do you. regardless of what that looks like. there is no perfect timeline, no american dream to follow, no perfect way of creating the life you feel you have to live, those are all made up. be you, do you, and know what it is you want… for me that looks like a morning spent in bed, a hot cup of coffee, two warm furballs snuggled up, and a blog post written to you.
so please do forgive the over-abundance of puppy photos, they are my little babies and they are perfect.
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my puppies have their noses resting on the computer as i write this! love puppy pictures. and being a puppy mom 🙂 especially tucks collar. live on dreams j!