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I have something to tell you! I’ve been keeping this close for a while now, sitting with it and making sure it was real before I said it out loud. After nine hundred and sixty-eight episodes and nearly a decade of showing up in your earbuds, I’m pausing The Goal Digger Podcast.

This isn’t a goodbye. This is actually the goal I’ve been digging toward all along without even fully realizing it until now. Let me explain.

The Vision I am Seeing

I’ve had this image in my head of closing a book I’ve been writing for ten years, not throwing it away but gently placing it on the shelf with gratitude and peace. Nine hundred and sixty-eight pages. Not a round number, but real and complete.

My perfectionist brain calculated what it would take to hit one thousand episodes. I almost pushed myself to make it happen because one thousand sounds impressive and headline-worthy. But that voice telling me the number matters more than the knowing is exactly the one I’m done listening to. I guess 968 is the honest number that represents me choosing alignment over achievement. More isn’t always more.

The Pattern I’ve Been Unwiring

Over the last few years I’ve been in therapy doing a lot of untangling, asking myself honest questions about where I’m most lit up versus where I’m just performing because I’m good at something. I dove competitively my entire college career even though I genuinely hate being cold and wet. I lived in a pool and smelled like chlorine for four years straight not because I loved it, but because I was good at it.

I love this podcast. It’s been the greatest blessing, the biggest connector, a huge revenue source and massive business driver. But I stay in places where I’m really good at performing, where I stay because I’m good at it not always because it’s lighting me up anymore. Watching my girls grow up and seeing parts of myself in them has pushed me to think about what patterns I want to break and what I want to model for them.

Looking for Permission I Couldn’t Find

Months ago I found myself Googling women who were in the spotlight and chose to take a step back at the height of their career, women who could have hit the gas pedal but made a distinct choice to go a different direction. It was really hard to find those stories.

For women this isn’t often modeled. Making these choices when it’s not coming from drama or failure, but from mindful intention. Most people just disappear with no explanation or make the grandiose announcement and you never hear from them again.

I want to show you what it looks like when a woman makes this choice fully awake, from a place of peace not panic. So many women want this but don’t have the words for it: the permission to step back without a crisis forcing their hand, the freedom to choose rest before burnout makes the choice for them.

What I Actually Want

I want more real life. Life offline where I’m not constantly creating content but just living it. Mornings with my girls that aren’t shadowed by recording schedules, being in my garden with my hands in the dirt, sitting with Drew in the evening and actually being there, showing up at school pickup because my schedule was built around it.

Here’s what caught me off guard: both my girls are in school full time now. For years I told myself that when this season came I’d be ready to hit the gas again. But now that I have the space, I don’t want to fill it with more work. I want to keep slowing down and protect that spaciousness.

My therapist said sometimes time out of therapy is just as important as time in therapy because you get to integrate and grow without constantly processing out loud. That’s exactly how I feel about podcasting right now. Time away from it will be just as valuable because I get to just live without thinking about how to package it.

This Was Always the Goal

I am not shutting down my business. I am not disappearing. I am pausing this one channel so I can be more present and creative in other spaces.

The through line of my entire business has always been about getting back your time, building systems, creating work that works for you. Being able to make this choice right now is proof that everything I’ve taught actually works. The strategies work so well that I actually have a choice here.

I’m not being pushed out. I’m standing in a business that runs, that serves, that generates, and I’m choosing to step back from one piece of it because I can. Even in shutting down this seven-figure revenue stream, I will still have an incredibly successful company. The work I’ve done over the last nine years will keep working for me.

This is what success can look like: a woman standing in her business not exhausted or burnt out, but peaceful, grateful, whole, and choosing what comes next from abundance instead of scarcity. I thought the goal was downloads and revenue and impact. But the thing I was really digging for all along was something quieter: peace.

Time Is My Currency

I’ve been saying for years that time is my currency, more valuable than money or followers or any metric the business world uses. Every major evolution in my life has come after I freed up my time. When I stopped shooting weddings every weekend I had space to build courses. When I stopped saying yes to every speaking opportunity I had capacity to be more present at home. When I simplified my offers, my creativity came back.

Time creates space. Space is where the next thing emerges. I’m treating this next season as an experiment in spaciousness, in trusting, in staying open without grasping.

What I Hope My Daughters See

I’ve been thinking about what my girls are watching and learning from how I live, not just what I say. They’re young and they won’t remember every episode I recorded, but they’ll remember how I showed up, whether mom was present or distracted.

I want them to see their mom walk away from something successful not because it failed but because something else mattered more. I want them to see a woman who didn’t let achievement become a cage, who chose her life over her platform.

I want them to grow up knowing you can build something incredible and still set it down, that success isn’t something you chase forever, that peace isn’t earned through exhaustion. Maybe someday when they’re building their own lives they’ll remember that their mom chose presence, chose them, chose herself, and it will give them permission to do the same.

Coming Back to My Roots

I’m not disappearing, I’m just shifting. I’ll be more creative and more present in spaces like my email list and Instagram. When I do show up, every single word will be written by me. No ghostwriters. Just me, my voice, my heart, my words.

This is me coming back to my roots, back to that woman in the closet with a microphone sharing what she was learning because she genuinely wanted to help, not because the algorithm demanded it.

I’ve been loving writing again lately. The thought of snuggling up with my laptop and just writing with no agenda, no episode to produce, no deadline looming genuinely excites me. Maybe it’ll be a blog, maybe something I can’t even imagine yet.

I have no secret projects or ulterior motives, just spaciousness and time to figure out what I really want to do next. I want to create from overflow instead of obligation, to speak when I have something worth saying.

Expanding What’s Possible

So many women want what I’m choosing right now but don’t have the words for it or a model showing them it’s possible. We want to step back without a crisis forcing our hand, we want to choose rest before burnout makes the choice for us, we want to build something successful and then actually enjoy it instead of being enslaved by it.

We don’t see it modeled often. We see women grinding until they break, disappearing without explanation, apologizing for wanting less.

I think there’s something powerful about watching someone choose differently in real time and not fall apart, about witnessing a woman step back from the spotlight not because she couldn’t handle it but because she realized she didn’t need it to be whole.

That’s what I hope this moment offers you: possibility. The possibility that you can define success on your own terms, that you can build something amazing and then choose how you want to relate to it, that rest isn’t a reward you earn after burning out but something you get to choose because you designed your life that way.

If this resonates with something deep inside you, let this be your permission slip. You can choose to pause while things are still good. You can want less and have it mean more. You can step back and step into yourself at the same time.

Thank You

Nine hundred and sixty-eight episodes. Over one hundred and fifteen million downloads in almost every country in the world. That’s not just a statistic, that’s hours and commutes and workouts and late nights and early mornings. Real people, real time, real attention. You gave it to me.

I think about the woman who started her Etsy shop while listening and quit her corporate job eighteen months later. The mom who called Goal Digger her “business school in the carpool line.” The listener who said a specific episode gave her permission to rest and that permission might have saved her marriage. The woman who was listening while in labor.

You let me learn out loud, you let me grow in public, you let me be imperfect and still show up. Goal Digger gave me a voice when I wasn’t sure I had one. We did this together. Every single download was you saying “I’m here, I’m listening, keep going.” And for almost a decade I did.

The Vault Isn’t Going Anywhere

There are nine hundred and sixty-eight episodes in this feed. That’s a library of strategies, interviews, case studies, behind the scenes moments, and real talk about building a business that actually fits your life.

If you’re new here or there are episodes you haven’t gotten to yet, now is the time to dig in. Go back to the past few months especially. Now that you know this was coming you can listen with fresh ears and see the breadcrumbs I was leaving. This vault was built to serve you for years to come.

What’s Next

Will there ever be a season two of this podcast? I’m open to whatever magic the future has in store. Maybe I’ll miss this so much I’m back in six months, maybe it’ll be a year, maybe something completely different will emerge that I can’t even imagine right now.

I’m genuinely curious to find out and I’m not closing doors, I’m just not forcing them open either. If you haven’t already, hit subscribe because if I do pick up this microphone again, I want you to be the first to know.

And will you leave a review as a parting gift? Whether you’ve listened to one episode or all nine hundred and sixty-eight it would mean so much. I read every single one and knowing this podcast made a difference for you is what I’ll carry with me into this next chapter.

Nine hundred and sixty-eight episodes. Not a thousand. Just the honest number that represents me choosing alignment over achievement. Nearly a decade of showing up, a lifetime of lessons learned, and a woman who is deeply grateful, genuinely at peace, and incredibly open to whatever comes next.

When you make the brave choice to honor what you really want, even if it surprises people, even if it doesn’t make sense on paper, you might just find what you were digging for all along: peace, presence, purpose, freedom. And with that, this concludes season one of The Goal Digger Podcast.

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