Today I’m opening up about my story of starting my business, my first baby and the fears that are on my heart as we consider growing our family. I’m talking about our journey thus far, what’s next and how my heart really feels about adding another family member. In this weeks episode I get real about how I’m scared to have a baby.
SHOW NOTES
“The thought of switching from having my business be my baby to having a baby be my baby is quite terrifying” (11:15)
“You know you are taking this life that you’ve built and that you’ve curated, you’re taking this business that is such an extension of your soul that is it impossible to see where your soul ends and your business begins” (11:24)
“There have been days where it just feels like grief is this ocean and some days I can just stand on the shore and acknowledge the waves and some days those waves just suck me in” (17:25)
“There are just so many things for women that we struggle with that we just don’t talk about, we just don’t talk about them” (19:39)
“Your heart doesn’t max out its capacity, it just gets bigger” (23:04)
“What I really think that we as women need is that we need a little bit more honesty, we need a little bit more grace and a lot less judgment (29:02)
Can anyone relate to my “I’m scared to have a baby ” fears? Comment below, I’d love to hear!
You should read Cheryl Strayed’s latest book, Tiny Beautiful Things: Advice on Life and Love from Dear Sugar. She gives a lot of advice to people who are struggling with different life issues. It’s written in letter format. Having a baby is one of those things she touches on. No one can tell you whether or not you should or shouldn’t have a child. What I can tell you about having a family is that its the best and hardest thing you will ever do, and it’s worth it. I thought my heart was full when I married my hubby but kids make your heart and love grow like wildfire. Best of luck with your decision.
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS PODCAST!!
After listening to an earlier Goal Digger podcast where you mentioned your miscarriage, I actually came to your page today to sniff around and see if you had told your story in a blog here or something– only to find this new post at the top of the page. God is good.
My husband and I have been married for 4.5 years and I’ve run my own business for the last 2. My story almost exactly mirrors what you shared– didn’t want to even touch the subject of kids for a long time, and then finally decided to go for it last year. I miscarried 4 days before my first doctor’s appointment– it was Thanksgiving weekend, aka peak time for my online store, so I quietly dealt with it through the holiday rush and still don’t exactly understand all of my feelings.
I don’t even really know how to tell people about it because it’s such an out-of-the-blue thing to bring up since no one even knew we were trying.
THANK YOU SO MUCH for putting your story and your fears out there, and for letting us in. It’s a lonely season of life, but it really doesn’t have to be. I love what you’re doing with your podcast in general. Thank you, thank you, thank you <3
I super appreciate this episode! Very encouraging. Brings to my mind James 1:19 be quick to listen and slow to speak. Thank you for sharing and bringing light to a very isolating topic that is not talked about.